EmanoNー名無し(The road to the unknown.)

やっと！私　は　うちで　仕事をやることができます！(finally i can do my work at home)… it really feels good if you could do your work at the comfort of your home… today i was able to finished two important items(meeting output and weekly report) in just two hours without any interruption …

thanks to my boss who had lend me a laptop(it was quite old and slow but it’s ok.. at least it has never disappointed me yet….) >> i just thought that the reason behind my boss has lend me a PC was not because my laptop was broke but because he want me to be more productive.. that even when i’m home i can do my work.. eheheh nice guy.. `頭　が　いい`

armed with an internet connection(thanks to Jan who had installed smart bro in our humble abode), chowking pork chao fan, 2 Nescafe 3 in 1 original coffee, my cute Speaker @cube and Nobuo Uematsu and Kajira Yuki’s inspiring pieces that gave me energy and the power, i was able to work for 2 straight hours without any interruption.

finally the training had ended.. though it did not really went perfectly but it ends well… so after a day’s work a good meal is what i need…and since i lost in a bet with one of our engineer and had to pay a debt with an admin staff… and since both were present in the office and i need some friends to talk with while eating…so i invite them… and other engineers came with us also.. thus making the voyage to the japanese restaurant an enjoyable one… much more while we were eating… chatting.. laughing… and enjoying our food is a good way to relax and free ourselves from the burden of our work… indeed it was a good meal..

while Ms. P was on her way to the toilet… she suddenly waves her hand in front of me (well my table was actually facing the alley towards the toilet… so everybody has to walk in front of me… thus i actually knew who goes in and comes out… hehehehehe well sometime it was irritating because of the sound of the door as it opens and close everytime someone goes in and out of the toilet….)

then i say, "yes? what’s up?"  and she answered  "oh it’s nothing… i just said hello" and i replied "oh… thanks.." and she ask me "so how are you?"… and i said.." i’m physically and mentally sleepy…" and then answered quickly "ah.. your physically and mentally sleepy? that means that you are bored.." I said " yeah probably…" Ms. P answered " well i’m also bored… i was on my way to the toilet to take my medicine.. i was actually getting tired of taking it… well if i won’t take it, then someone will be angry…"

then we had quite a nice conversation afterwards.. talking about my planner and other stuff… then we both got back to our work like as if nothing had happened… i think the only way to break those monotonous atmosphere aroind us is to have a chat and a good conversation…

this morning, i was surprised by a message in my yahoo messenger from T.  she was angry, frustrated, and HOMICIDAL… it’s Monday morning, the first day of work and of the week.. and a message such as below would be somewhat very rare….

T: I noticed that everyday, when I write here, I always tend to bitch about something. Like, bitch about how I think the company is so unfair, about how certain managers can be such assholes and when the hell will they self-destruct… about how all jeepney drivers are screaming stupid, about how the PLDT DSL and Levelupgames suck, about how our neighbors are all drug addicts and how I wish they’d just die and about how I think our house is falling apart.Today, I decided that if I could not start it with something good, I’d just settle for sarcasm instead.
T: (Don’t you just love the feeling of bitterness on an early Monday morning?)
T: sir nep!
areman: ye…
areman: ok ka lang?? (are you ok?)
T: i feel so angry
T: so angry talaga na i want to kill people
areman: want to talk po??
areman: wait till 12 seconds..
areman: at mawawala din ang galit mo. (and your anger will be gone)
T: i just want to say that I feel homicidal now
T: ahhh! nice stat

and afterwards… she was calm and quite…. all i can see was HOMICIDAL on her status message. 

here is one concrete example of releasing the anger(bad energy) inside you.. don’t keep it, coz it will rot inside you and eat you alive… ehehehehe

If we’re unhappy, it’s because life is not as we want it.  Life is not matching our expectations of how it "ought" to be and so we are unhappy.  So we say, "I’ll be happy when…" Well, life is NOT PERFECT.  Life is about being exhilarated, frustrated, sometimes achieving and sometimes missing out.  So long as we say "I’ll be happy when..", we are deluding ourselves.

Happiness is a decision.  Many people live life as if someday they’ll arrive at "happiness" like one arrives at a bus stop.  They figure that someday everything will fall into place, they will take a deep breath and say, "Here I am at last…happy!"  Hence their life story is one of "I’ll be happy when.."

Each one of us has a decision to make.  Are we prepared to daily remind ourselves that we have only limited time to make the most of what we’ve got, or will we while away the present, hoping for a better future?  We only have so long on this planet.  Let’s make the most of it.  In order to be happier, in order to get more out of life, we don’t have to go and change the world.  The world is already beautiful.  We had to change ourselves. 

The world is not "perfect".  The degree of our unhappiness is the distance between the way things are and the way they "ought" to be.  If we cease to demand that things be perfect, the business of being happy becomes easier.  We then choose to have preferences for the way things might be, and decide that if our preferences are not met, we will be happy anyway.

If you want to be happy, BE HAPPY!

this is one of my favorite song from my favorite band Eraserheads… i tried to play it but unfortunately i really can’t get a good grasp of it… ehehehe  though the EHeads had disbanded… their songs continues to live on and influence others… this is for you… CB

You don’t need to leave. It seems a bit naive. No need to disagree or seek my history. You’re starin’ at my soul. My sanity you stole. But then I knew all along that anything could go wrong. Though I can’t see you, I can feel you. I’m so glad you opened my door. And when I get near all my fears disappear. And I won’t be alone anymore. 

RIP - "Here Lies Someone Who Was Going To Be Happy Tomorrow"

None of us has a guarantee that we will be here tomorrow.  Now is all we have got.

All you have is now.  The measure of our peace of mind and the measure of our personal effectiveness are determined by  how much we are able to live in the present moment.  Regardless of what happened yesterday and what might happen tomorrow.  NOW is where you are.  Thus focus your mind on the present moment! 

Living in the now means that we enjoy whatever we are doing for its own sake, and not just for the end results.  It is about expanding our awareness to make the  current moment more delicious rather than shutting off.  Each of us has the choice, moment by moment, as to whether we really live and absorb and allow ourselves to be touched and affected.

Time doesn’t really exist, except as an abstract concept in your head.  The present moment is the only time you have.  Make something of this moment!  Live in the NOW!

hi… i arrived at 8:40 PM from Davao… my flight was delayed… here i am back in Makati.. tomorrow i’ll be working again… had to wake up at 6:30 or 7:00 AM… back at staring again my monitor… and checking my notebook for "Things To Do" for the day… I had a nice vacation… though i had not much activities… what i did was stay at home in the morning either eating, sleeping, watching TV/DVD, etc… and when the clock hits 6:00 PM… i get a shower and took off… had dinner dates, coffee breaks, and chit chats with friends…not to mention visiting my friend father’s wake… it was a really short vacation… but i had to go back… back to the reality…