today at 1:15 AM was the saddest and painful feelings i had…. i just came from a dinner and long talk with my friends at 1 AM… i had an enjoyable time with them… lots of catching ups and laughing… then when i plug her in and push that button…. it cannot return that bright smile at me… there was a flash of light and darkness afterward… i was scared…and was panicking.. thinking what should i do.. i turn her off and turn her on again… and the same thing happens…. "S***" i uttered… and had done something different on her.. but still i was unsuccessful… i was a failure… finally she had given up on me… i told her to hang on until i can copy her…guess she can’t wait for that…. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa D*** i am totally messed up today… all my works are with her… i guess it’s time for me to replace her…. why would i insist on having her? the she herself does not want to be with me and to have me…indeed life is cruel… life is unpredictable….