きもち, あたまがいい, on the spotOctober 1, 2008 6:38 am

a while ago… a friend of mine sent me a U2-Stay(Far-away, So close) song… he said he has this cool unplugged version… so i answered ok.. send it here(we were talking in YM)…then after a few minutes.. i got the whole song… then he as me to turn the volume up and listen to it well.. and tell him my interpretation of the song….so i listen and after i finish the second round… i utter… HOPELESS… FUCKING BULLSHIT MEANINGLESS LIFE… and he anwered that i am so negative… eheheh(ey that’s what i feel and understand ehehhe).. and then he said .. well it depends on the listener how he/she interprets the song… that’s what is unique with U2 song coz it has a lot of meaning….and he told me of his own interpretations… he said that i am correct but i had to look at a different perspective… he said that it was an angel or celestial being who was singing the song for someone whom he/she has been looking for quite some time…then he explain each line then each paragraph….he told me that the angel is the one singing… he/she is the one who had seen this fucking bullshit meaningless life but she/he can’t do anything about it…

And if you look, you look through me
And if you talk it’s not to me
And when I touch you, you don’t feel a thing
If you look you look through me <— the singer is invisible

he’s been doing U2lyrics-ology(studying lyrics of U2’s songs on one’s free time)…well i gave you the lyrics now and see for yourself of how you will interpret the song…HINT: sing it as if your the angel singing the song… in the end it will make you HIGH….

Green light, seven eleven
You stop in for a pack of cigarettes
You don’t smoke, don’t even want to
Hey now, i see you check your change
Dressed up like a car crash
The wheels are turning but you’re upside down
You say when he hits you, you don’t mind
Because when he hurts you, you feel alive
Oh, now, Is that what it is?

Red lights, gray morning
You stumble out of a hole in the ground
A vampire or a victim
It depends on who’s around
You used to stay in to watch the adverts
You could lip sync with the talk show hosts

And if you look, you look through me
And if you talk it’s not to me
And when I touch you, you don’t feel a thing

If I could stay.. then the night would give you up
Stay, and the day would keep it’s trust
Stay, and the night would be enough

Faraway, so close
Up with the static and the radio waves
With satellite television
You can go anywhere
Miami, New Orleans, London, Belfast and Berlin
And if you listen I can’t call
And if you jump, you just might fall
And if you shout I’ll only hear you

If I could stay.. then the night would give you up
Stay then the day would keep it’s trust
Stay with the demons you drown
Stay with the spirit I found
Stay and the night would be enough

Three o’clock in the morning
It’s quiet and there’s no one around
Just the bang and the clatter
As an angel runs to the ground
Just the bang and the clatter
As an angel hits the ground

きもち, あたまがいいSeptember 25, 2008 6:12 am

quote for the day…

if this day did not end up the way you planned it,
always remember…
if God had wanted this day to be perfect,
then He would not have needed to create tomorrow…

きもち, あたまがいいSeptember 7, 2008 2:43 am
they say that you should not build a wall between you and the people around you.. instead build a BRIDGE… in that way both you and those around you can freely meet in the middle, build acquaintances, create a circle of friends and for some, settle their differences…
きもちSeptember 4, 2008 1:41 pm
ehehehe i got this from someone once special and dear to me… i was a bit bored that day(am on a vacation in Davao–my hometown), and so after 30 minutes of boredom i end up cleaning my room… and i found this tin can… with pictures of bears around it…and so i open it up… and hora! there it was… a cute white-blue little bear with an ‘I LOVE YOU’ written on its shirt… thus i took a picture of it… and here it is…a bearhug gift…
 
きもち, 仕事August 22, 2008 1:45 am

this was the speech i delivered during our morning meeting… unfortunately my name was drawn from the white box… but anyway, i just made it short for not to be boring… and the topic maybe too serious… well i just leave it to them, those who listens if they find it worth listening for…. here goes…by the way it was delivered in Nihongo(Japanese Language)…

Life( 人生)

we all knew that life is difficult,  it is complicated. 

じんせい は むずかしかった、 ややこしかった。

私たち は そのこと を しりました。

but no matter how hard it is we always find a way to make it easy to live…

ですが、どんなに むずかしくても, 

私たち は いつも 自分にみあったみち を さがしています。

no matter how painful it is we always find time to laugh on it…

どんなにつらくても、私たちは笑う時間をみつけています。

no matter how unclear it is we work hard to keep it on track…

どんなにふめいかくでも、わたしたちは道にそれないように一生懸命働きます

even though it is almost lost in the wilderness we always believe that there is hope in it…

こうやのはてにまよっても、

私たち は きぼう がある こと を いつも しんじています。

that’s life… though it sucks it is worth living for…so how’s you life? 

たとえ、生きることはめんどくさくても、

それが、よい人生です。

あなたの人生はどうですか?

きもち, 仕事, あたまがいいAugust 21, 2008 2:23 pm

just got home from an ejoyable dinner at McDonalds…

me and a few of my trainees had made a pit-stop at McDo just to satisfy our hungry stomachs…well the truth is,  i had invited them to join me for a dinner.. in other words i had treated them…emoticon they had been through a lot or pressures these past few days and their schedules were very tight which make their faces frowned from time to time… you can hardly see them smiles and crack jokes with their co-trainees…deadlines dealines and deadlines…. those were the words you can hear from them… exams, exams and exams were also their favorite words to utter…a few got sick and absent, thus adding to their worries of catching up with the lessons…and not to mentioned deducting it from their allowance… thus in the end they don’t know what to do…and they do get tired and gave up… and it situation like this.. i had made a point to cheer them up… that by all means i had to bring them to a worry free atmoshphere even for a while… and food  is my own little way of doing it…and i guess i was successful…. for we had an enjoyable dinner together…while eating we were talking stuff not related to training…we were laughing and joking around like nothing has happen before… and am glad that they were smiling and laughing again… that in a short period of time they forgot their worries on their training…for an hour they were relieved of the stress and pressure brought to them by the training…for an hour, they had enjoyed the company of their co-trainees…for an hour they forgot about their deadlines, assignments, exams, senseis, and trainors…for an hour they had forgot that they were exhausted and tired…

and in the end, everything were alright…

きもち, あたまがいい, Other StuffJuly 4, 2008 1:45 pm

well it’s time for you to know some of my secrets… and after today, it would be  a secret no more…ehehehehe.. the truth is I’m an avid Fan of Anne Rice… in fact i’ve collected all the books she had written… maybe you have heard of her famous Vampire Chronicles– Interview with the Vampire, Vampire Lestat, Queen of the Damned, The Body Thief and Memnoch the Devil. Also i got her rare trilogy erotic books under her pen name A. N. Roquelaure.  though i forgot to count all  the books  i had with her, but I make sure that i am always updated… i even got her latest book entitled ‘Christ the Lord - The Road to Cana’. well next time when i’ll be in Davao again… i will recount her books again… jaa for you to see the proof.. here are some pictures of it.. these were taken in my bookshelves in my room in Davao and here in my room at Makati…well pardon me.. i forgot to sort out the Harry Potter Books and Lord of the Rings collections i had…emoticon no to mention the Purpose Driven Life book too.. ehehehehe

 

 

 

 

 

きもち, 仕事June 21, 2008 1:39 am
today at 1:15 AM was the saddest and painful feelings i had…. i just came from a dinner and long talk with my friends at 1 AM… i had an enjoyable time with them… lots of catching ups and laughing… then when i plug her in and push that button…. it cannot return that bright smile at me… there was a flash of light and darkness afterward… i was scared…and was panicking.. thinking what should i do.. i turn her off and turn her on again… and the same thing happens…. "S***" i uttered… and had done something different on her.. but still i was unsuccessful… i was a failure… finally she had given up on me… i told her to hang on until i can copy her…guess she can’t wait for that…. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa D*** i am totally messed up today… all my works are with her… i guess it’s time for me to replace her…. why would i insist on having her? the she herself does not want to be with me and to have me…indeed life is cruel… life is unpredictable….
きもちJune 7, 2008 2:59 pm

my beloved, you were set apart for me from the beginning of the world.
my heart filled with pain; it was washed in pain.
farewell, my blessed darling.
i let the grief come.  i let it run through my veins. it was not grief for her, but for the absence of her forever, the absence of that intimacy, the anbsence of that one beating heart that could have been so very close.i let myself know it in the absence, and then i kissed her with all my heart, and i let this go. 

きもち, 仕事, あたまがいいJune 6, 2008 3:34 pm

today is friday… and its a gimmick day… but instead of going out to bars and clubs… the group of 5 just ate some heavy dinner at a Japanese restaurant at the Little Tokyo… the resto was called Yamazaki!  well it’s my favourite Japanese restaurant here in Makati and so was J(female)… actually the plan was a dinner of 3, that’s me, K(male) and J(female)… and since K was keep on extending because of some deadlines… B(male) and A(male) decided to join us… and so our journey starts at 6:30… J was so hungry that she keeps on murmuring why we have to walk… and we just let her be and continue with our journey… it was a 15 minutes walk actually… just near and we actually walk fast.. but she kept on insisting that she’s hungry and tired… but in the end she walked with us.. eheheheh and so ended up following the wrong street because we were so bz talking.. and they blame me for what had happened.. ow well… and finally we arrived at our destination… the place to be at the Yamazaki… so quickly we order some food… four of us got a set meal while K had his favourite curry rice… and i think it was around 15 minutes and J had eaten all her food… yeah.. she was really hungry… ehehehehe and while were chatting and eating… a familiar guy came in with a lady with him… and we knew who he was and so we just greet him quickly and did not bother him/them afterwards… because i think he was on a date.. eheheheh i think he didn’t know we were there eating… and since they were already there eating, he has no choice but to sit to the next free table… ehehehe but really we did not disturb his quality time with her girl.. eheheh (peace R)… and so we finished all our food and leave the place and went to the coffee shop for some coffee ofcourse and to continue the stories that we started to talk about…each one of us both a coffee, i got a hot white mocha while the rest of them got a frappucino… and the conversation conitnues… it was actually fun… we were arguing, explaining some concepts and laughing…it was really a good time for me.. and i hope they enjoy it too… and at around 10:30… the group of 5 is now the group of four.. A left us to catch a bus for his province… and so he bid goodbye to us.. and we just sit there for the rest of the wee hours until 12 when we decided to end the conversation.. and each of us headed their own way home… it was a good talk and i enjoy it the most…